AMAZING...
A twenty year old girl, who went through a fourth of her life the hard way. Yes, that's me. Just eager to know what's it's like on the other side. Hah! I'm pretty "radical", though heaven knows what it means to the one who gave that description of me! Knowing right from wrong, i still insist on doing the wrong things(well,sometimes) just for the heck of it. Which naturally gets me in a whole lotta mess! Radical? I think not! Mule headed is more likely! Hehehe!
I want to believe i'm smart, intelligent and practical. But certain instances in my life, i questioned myself if i really have those qualities in me. Guess I still need to figure myself out.
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Jun 29, 2006
damn it!!Don't delete ur blogs man...I'm gonna miss reading your blogs..
OK..I'm sorry I haven't written anything for tha past...year???but come on!!I'm gonna miss it sooo bad...
Reconsider,ok??Evaluate it again and then sleep on it..Sometimes, things look better when u wake up..hehehe...But it's not a guarantee..hahahaha...
Posted at 02:48 pm by mYwA
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Apr 16, 2006
hay....kung may madaan man sa blog na ito....pasensya na...wala akong gana magkwento ngyn eh...at hindi ko p napapalitan ang picture na un for like 2 yrs. na ata...
basta....amma post something soon....i hope so...hehehe...
Posted at 12:07 am by mYwA
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Jul 29, 2005
A day when my headache stopped for just 15mins the whole day...dang!!!
It started out to be a normal thursday for me.went to St. Jude to pray.Missed the mass, went to KFC and ate lunch with friends.After which we went to Starbucks and studied. A friend of mine revealed that her x's life is in danger. funny how one click of a gun can change one's life. Don't get me wrong, her x didn't kill anyone, his friend did. Now someone's after thier life. 830pm, my phone rang and saw an unknown number, answered the call and a friend of mine was hysterical, crying over the phone and asking for 30,000(which i don't have and if i did i wouldn't lend it) coz her boyfriend got caught in possession of drugs(don't know what drugs but what's the diff???). I called up my friend who has a friend who's father is a general. then my hysterical friend called again saying that they settled it and will just pay 30,000 tomorrow. i just wish i felt bad about that incident, but i didn't... it was long over due. I hope they learned thier lesson, but i doubt it.
9pm went to yellow cab and ate dinner with rocky, saw our friend's niece with someone, and it wasn't her dad....got into a cab around 1030pm.on the way home rocky asked me to do a business proposal. Not having a clue on how to start a proposal, naturally, i searched the net for answers. as i browsed, i had some ideas on how to do it...being an accounting graduates i need figures. i need to have cost-benefit analysis if i were the one to make the decision, right??we didn't agree on what to do and i have no idea on what he wants me to do...so we ended up not talking...that's why i'm writing this blog and he's on the other PC playing NBA live...hay...
what a fine day...
Posted at 01:09 am by mYwA
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Jul 25, 2005
brown out kanina dito sa bahay.kaya nagpunta nlng kmi ng mall. Nag-aral ako sa coffee shop at buti na lang natiis kong hindi manood ng THE ISLAND. As tempting as it may be hindi ko tlga sya pinanood!!wohoo!!! marami naman akong napag-aralan sa coffee shop.
pag dating nmin dito sa bahay wala pa ring kuryente.kaya tumawag na kmi sa meralco. Habang hinihintay ang mag-aayos ng kable ng kuryente, lumabas kmi at naglaro ng tong-its at pusoy dos...hay....tawa lng kmi ng tawa...sana gnun nlng lagi ang buhay...maghihintay k nlng ng taong mag-aayos ng problema mo...hehehe...ang saya siguro nun....
narinig ko lang kanina sa tv, habang naghahanap ng magandang papanoorin, ang kanta ng sugarfree na KWARTO. nagandahan lng ako sa lyrics ng kanta...kung sana pwede mo lng ilagay ang lahat ng masasakit at masasamang bagay sa isang kwarto at pag napag-isipan mo nang sawa ka na sa kababalik sa kwartong yon, magpaalam ka nalang at lumabas sa tunay na mundo at hindi muling babalik pa sa kwartong yon...hehehe...
hindi ako nababaliw, nag-iisip lng nnmn ng kung ano-ano..hehehe....
bakit kaya wala pang entry ang pinsan ko sa blog nya???miss ko na mga entry nya eh..
Posted at 03:22 am by mYwA
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Jul 22, 2005
i was so ready to write this entry...the funny thing is the real stuff that i wrote 2 nights ago is at the apartment so this is just me whining about my stupidity...hahahahaha....
if you guys wanna hear about my day i've got one word for it "BORING".., I should be studying right now...damn!!i just can't focus!!!preboard na sa 30!!!punyeta!!!kinakabahan na talaga ako!!!leche!!!
bkt b kc naaapektohan pa rin ako?!?!?!LET GO!!!two words that are running through my ming each time i try to do something really stupid.
yesterday i went out with my friends and talked about the up coming wedding.to our surprise, it wasn't a dream wedding that we all thought it was.it's gonna be a "shotgun-wedding-with-consent".magulo na malungkot.nung una wla kaming masabi...how could one say "tanginang yan!!sigurado ka na ba sa gagawin mo???"....which is so funny kasi i've been through that crap.....un na un!!hahahahaha!!!anyway, we really wanna help, but still the last decision is his...shit!!
earlier this night...we stopped at araneta center to eat at ice monster, and yes i confess that i'm addicted to that stuff, and to our surprise, this guy came running towards us and this girl behind him was screaming CELLPHONE KO!!! i was so shocked at the scene the guy went past me and i didn't even do something!!!DAMN!!was that stupid or what!??!i honestly got scared i really wanted to stop the guy but i was so scared...tanginang kaduwagan 'to oh!!!hay....
pag karating ko nmn dito sa bahay....bitin ang ulam...tamad nmn ako magluto...habang kumakain ako maraming nag message sa YM kaso nga kumakain ko,pag dating ko sa PC wla na...hay...dami ko pa nmn sanang kwento...hehehehe...
honga pala...ung dubbie nights un lang ung part na maisusulat ko.nakalimutan ko n kc ung iba and i'm 99.99% sure na hindi na mangyayari ulit un...you might ask kung bakit 99.99%, mahirap n kc magsalita ng patapos..hahahahahaha!!
Posted at 11:33 pm by mYwA
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Jul 18, 2005
damn...i'm so sick...literally...my throat feels like it's on fire!!i think my nose is clogged like our kitchen sink in our apartment...DAMN!!!it's all for the concert held last night at eastwood....it was so much fun and we ate at SOMETHING FISHY...for just 80Php you can avail of their buffet at 12am-10am...so we waited till 12am so that we can avail of that promo...
on the way home,we were on the main street of the village when the rain poured!!!just think of the odds???it was thundering before we went to eastwood and it didn't rain, but on the way home it did???though luck huh???that's where i caught this irritating, painfull, and agonizing colds!!!wala kc kming payong....hay...sabi na bumili ng payong eh!!!
eto lang muna ang kaya ng mata kong isulat...hanggang sa paggaling ko!!ciao!!
Posted at 05:17 am by mYwA
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May 28, 2005
GRADUATE N KO!!wohooo.....wala lng...parang walang pinagbago...malamang dahil kasi sa review school,feeling ko pumapasok pa rin ako sa school....
the solemn investiture was fine.gumising ng 5am naka-alis ng 630 duamting sa ust ng 730 at nagstart ng 815...sobrang init!!!it lasted for nearly two hours...picture picture....lunch with family...tpos...tapos na..un lng...sabi pa naman nila ang sarap daw ng feeling...parang wala lng..
ang pinaka bad trip nung araw na yun ay ang PIER ONE!!putang ina!!gimik n gimik n ko ayaw papasukin ung isang friend nmin, mukha daw kasing minor!!leche.....pumunta nlng kmi kna boyet...hay...dun nlng kmi naginuman....hay....
nasa davao n cla mama at papa....we watched madagascar and ate pizza ang pasta at yellow cab...at doon nakita namin sa barbara!!!hehehehe...gigimik nnmn c loka!!hay...walang kasawa-sawa sa gimik...
nagulat cguro ang lahat at may entry na ulit ako....i promised ate verni na magpopost ako eh..hehehe...
till the next blog...
Posted at 01:31 am by mYwA
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May 10, 2005
I don't know.
I want to run away.
From where, I don't know.
I don't have much to say but I have lots of things running in my head.
Whatever they are, I don't know.
The smell of fresh paint fills my lungs.
If it's got anything to do with my blurry mind, I don't know.
I seem to say "I don't know" in every line.
For what reason, I don't know.
What do I know?
Maybe nothing.
Posted at 12:05 am by gabgabgab
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Mar 29, 2005
so much to tell!!!part 1: dubbie nights
grabe!!!it's been months...i'll break down my entries to how many parts of my life i missed recording...first thing first...DUBBIE NIGHTS...
once again another drinking session with my friends.the only difference that night was the dubbie...hehehe...i've tried that before but this night i had a major problem and couldn't handle it without help...i told you i was weak..hehehe...
first choke came and went...waiting for the hit....then without my knowledge everything went slow motion...then i can hear myself talking to myself....i was making my diary in my head a little weird yet satisfying....someone was talking to me...i can't understand what he/she was saying...then slowly the question hit me...i answered...didn't care if i answered it right..hehehe..i can clearly see someone was doing some animal stuff...as if he was a tiger or a lion...one thing i'm sure of he was acting as if he was some kind of a wild animal...funny...when it sank into me that it was funny i laughed so hard for God knows how long!!hehehe
another joint was passed to me...of course i puffed choked and got high...the voice in my head got louder...then i went to the point where i scrunitinized my personality my attitude and how i led my life...i had a conclusion...i told myself "ever since i was a kid i played a game it was called "keep it to yourself and everything will be fine.""hehehe...funny yet effective game...everyone i knew were guessing what i felt...the person who knows how i really feel must really know me well...
2am...we had to get going...i got my bag...rocky got my bigger bag...i guess it was a saturday because i knew at the time i have to get home..we wanted to go through lacson but someone said that we should take p noval...so we did...what happened next is the scariest thing that happened in my life...we were walking then we saw 3 guys came out of nowhere and were pretending to pee on the wall...my friend kept looking at them...i squeezed her hand trying to tell her to stop looking...my voice can't seem to come out of my mouth...i was trying to say something..no sound came...we crossed the street...the three guys were still behind us...we walked faster...they were still in pursuit!!the stop light seemed to be at arm's length yet i can't seem to get there!!i wanted to cry!!i wanted to stop running and cry!!(interruption for a while...the reason i had my big bag then was because we had to go to my classmate's house and do a project...a video project to be exact)and then we FINALLY reached the stop light and we're about to cross!!we had to cross!!beyond espana there was a minishop!!it's our haven!!we went in...bought something...someone bought mango juice ice cream and some chips...it seemed to be the most delicious food i ever tasted!!for a moment there i forgot about the guys who were chasing us.i was concentrating on eating the ice cream at hand...when rocky was sure that the guys were off our tail we went to the house of our friend...
Posted at 04:56 am by mYwA
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Jan 31, 2005
It's been a while since my last entry. Freakin worms in our pc is the reason i can't make an entry. Lack of motivation; another reason for not making an entry. Nothing worthwhile to write about; or just maybe lack of interest in anything.
The feeling of emptiness has come down on me again. I need motivation, I need something. Talking to someone in the net is not getting me anywhere. I can't talk to anyone sensible enough. I am once again alone. Indulge myself in books, watch endless programs on t.v., never the same feeling.
Watched a worthless movie, Elektra, spent money on food, spending money on the rent for this computer, all seems so pointless. So why the hell am I doing this right now? Hoping this feeling of emptiness will just go away? yeah right...
Bloghopping, I read some really interesting entries. Some were about everyday life, some politics, some whining, some I can relate to and some I have no idea.
In these incoherent thoughts might make some readers just go to another blog, some might relate to it (I doubt that), some might treat is as garbage, which is exactly the title of this blog. I'm in one of my infamous mood swings again. At one point I was so happy and then a minute later I feel like the whole world is on my shoulder and then later on, ther's noone in this world who could possibly understand me but me.
As I predicted, our report was a disaster. I wasn't able to defend our stand. The reason? It wasn't my opinion it was one of my groupmates' idea. The submissive side of me won, that's why I agreed to the recommendation. I should have foght for my opinion, besides, it wasn't her who would stand up against the panel. The professor asked so many questions I wasn't ready for, and the one who had changed our previous stand can't even defend her side. My face was so red in anger and embarrasment. I was imagining stangling the one beside me while the professor criticizes our case. No one even bothered to speak up. It was me all through out the report.
Again, this is one hell of a day. I still have to review the statement of affairs that was assigned to us last week, I might have made another judgemental error or a mathematical one. I never felt so wrong in my life. This is the one case that I wasn't able to defend. I wish I was there when they made the presentation.
I know, I'm in one of my "what if's?". It's over, move on. Another day of criticizm awaits me tomorrow.
Posted at 04:19 pm by mYwA
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